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The child 21 so old =( 01081986 Student NUS Arts/ Social Work Christian New Creation Church Loves all who matters to me =) Food! butter corn and raisins! Pepsi WESTLIFE!!! Hates insincerity previous posts what i want to say is, Daddy God you NEVER FAIL to... today's definitely not one of my better days. =( ok i'm in the youth hub manning youth hub. let me ... once again i'm back! after taking a looong hiatus ... ahh let me set the record straight. i got study ok... i'm here to blog!!!today's flow of events.. 10am: ... today is Miracle Seed Sunday!!! =)) Expect expect ... [ ` *wenbin* ` ] [11th] ~ ウェンビン *~ says:hahah dun... alright can liao. sighs. another ktv session. 3 co... past 08/01/2003 - 09/01/2003 09/01/2003 - 10/01/2003 10/01/2003 - 11/01/2003 11/01/2003 - 12/01/2003 12/01/2003 - 01/01/2004 01/01/2004 - 02/01/2004 02/01/2004 - 03/01/2004 03/01/2004 - 04/01/2004 04/01/2004 - 05/01/2004 05/01/2004 - 06/01/2004 06/01/2004 - 07/01/2004 09/01/2004 - 10/01/2004 10/01/2004 - 11/01/2004 03/01/2005 - 04/01/2005 04/01/2005 - 05/01/2005 05/01/2005 - 06/01/2005 06/01/2005 - 07/01/2005 07/01/2005 - 08/01/2005 08/01/2005 - 09/01/2005 09/01/2005 - 10/01/2005 12/01/2005 - 01/01/2006 01/01/2006 - 02/01/2006 02/01/2006 - 03/01/2006 03/01/2006 - 04/01/2006 04/01/2006 - 05/01/2006 05/01/2006 - 06/01/2006 06/01/2006 - 07/01/2006 07/01/2006 - 08/01/2006 08/01/2006 - 09/01/2006 09/01/2006 - 10/01/2006 10/01/2006 - 11/01/2006 11/01/2006 - 12/01/2006 12/01/2006 - 01/01/2007 01/01/2007 - 02/01/2007 02/01/2007 - 03/01/2007 03/01/2007 - 04/01/2007 04/01/2007 - 05/01/2007 05/01/2007 - 06/01/2007 06/01/2007 - 07/01/2007 07/01/2007 - 08/01/2007 08/01/2007 - 09/01/2007 09/01/2007 - 10/01/2007 10/01/2007 - 11/01/2007 11/01/2007 - 12/01/2007 12/01/2007 - 01/01/2008 01/01/2008 - 02/01/2008 02/01/2008 - 03/01/2008 04/01/2008 - 05/01/2008 05/01/2008 - 06/01/2008 09/01/2008 - 10/01/2008 10/01/2008 - 11/01/2008 02/01/2009 - 03/01/2009 links joHn kHoO sZeLiNg sHunDeNg brYaNlee aH zHor aka Yz dImpLy CryStal joooochuan yiiWen yIngChAo FreD PootS cHlOe huIshAn miChelle liXian coPyCat JanIciA zhenqiN/a> pAstOr BeNjaMin cHarMainE reBeCca=)
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Monday, April 30, 2007 ( @ 3:41:00 PM ) yesterday, i came back from church at 2pm. then i was supposed to study for my social work exam that is supposed to be on the next day's morning (today). then i started with a set of notes and after that, i couldnt focus anymore. then it dragged. and dragged. i became depressed that i started to break down. i tried doing past year papers but i couldnt do it! really, i couldnt answer the questions and i knew the questions would be similar. i really broke down in tears. i cried so hard you know. was sobbing. i had no idea what made me so fearful. i was so scared and tremble at the thought of my exam today. (no kidding) in my mind, i had demeaning thoughts like, if i had started revision earlier, i wouldnt be in this state. if i hadn't gone for church on saturday and on sunday, i would have more time to study. time at that time was a great factor and it was approaching evening already. so i just sat in front of the mess of my books and kept sobbing. i felt so helpless and lost. at the back of my mind, i knew God could help me. but how?? i didnt have an inkling of what i should do. i've never had such fear for my exam before, not for my uni exams. (coz i not taking honours ma, so i am not so particular about results) so i ended up crying for an hour plus. doing nothing and wasting my time. (it was 7 plus in the evening already. imagine my panic yet helpless state) i knew i needed help. i didnt noe who to call. i didnt think anybody could understand me. however i remembered my caregroup leader (charmaine) told me to msg her if anything on saturday. i msged her, telling her how lost i was feeling. she replied almost immediately, saying that she had sensed something's not right since saturday.. she gave me a call and prayed for me. she too shared her own experiences of how she had recieved God's UNEARNED and UNMERITED favour during her school time. she calmed me down, telling me to close my books and go listen to a sermon. I did exactly told. (note the time was 8 already) then, i searched for a sermon and took a sermon by Pastor Prince. He talked about God wanting to bless us in every way He could. not only 2fold, 3 fold, but 100 fold blessings! This means minimum effort but MAXIMUM blessings! All i need to do, is to know that I AM THE RIGHTEOUSNESS OF GOD IN CHRIST! He redeems us from having to work, having to put in effort. All i have to do is to be SECURE, REST and the robe on me is FOREVER. (Of course, Pastor Prince does not mean that i do not need to study lah.) Hence Right believing leads to Right Living. This message is so APT! God loves me so muchh! i had the peace inside me and the trouble just vanished. Btw, the listening to sermon took me until 10 plus.i was so tired with all the crying and was having a headache by then. so after i had dinner and bathe it was 1130pm. so i just trusted in God and went to bed. Prayed in tongues and trusted in the Righteousness i have in God! and also, i had the faith that i would be granted endless, unmerited, undeserved favor. Woke up in the morning around 645am. that was not much time to revise for anything as the paper was 9am. so i prayed and spoke that i was the righteousness in God and thank God for this favor that He wishes to shower on me. I asked to show me what i should study. Hence i just turned to a part in the book and just read..and went for exam. Amazingly the parts that i read was so useful in my exam you know! EXACT PART! i dunno why i didnt read that part before and couldnt find it! however God led me to it. He did and GOD IS SO GOOD! i dunno what grade i will get but i know i am far far from failing the paper. it's so Awesome! God sent Charmaine to reveal the blindspots of God's love for me. it's so everlasting and God was faithful, despite me being faithless. He will always be. And there's more for me. Thank you daddy God. As for God, His way is perfect, the word of the Lord is flawless. He is a shield for all who take refuge in Him. For who is God besides the Lord? And who is the Rock except our God? Psalm 18:28-31. 0 comments Sunday, April 29, 2007 ( @ 4:13:00 PM ) there's always a new flavour in every bite! chocolate bits, caramel, graham crunches! mmmmmm!!!!!!! Thank you daddy God for all the wonderful delicacies in life! =D 0 comments ( @ 12:34:00 AM ) the people of the caregroup veeery nice! today charmaine was very sweet! kept making sure that i was comfortable. =) thankew=) and of course deborah who brought me in. i wouldnt dare to walk in myself! haha. but thanks daddy God for bringing all of them to me! it's really God's work, for me to take bible and christianity alone and also to allow me to choose the same timeslot as my caregroup ppl! that's how i got to know some of them and they are really nice ppl to hang around with. thanks to deborah =) i've asked crystal to join me at church next sunday and she says yes! so happy =) anybody else wanna join? hee =) Thank you Jesus for loving me! =) 0 comments Friday, April 27, 2007 ( @ 11:42:00 PM ) daddy, this driving license is for you. before you left, i remembered clearly, you said to me. you want to be a passenger of my car. here it is. i've done it. i miss you. 0 comments Thursday, April 26, 2007 ( @ 3:09:00 PM ) i am also wondering about the same thing as well! 0 comments ( @ 2:38:00 PM ) so the next step after passing my test, i want this!  believing God for this! Haha! ok i'm not greedy. this one also can! =)  drrrroooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooools. 0 comments Thursday, April 19, 2007 ( @ 1:16:00 PM ) got back 2105 assignment yesterday. hmm i did rather badly in the skills assessment part. i guess i am still quite incompetent in terms of interviewing. but i noe i will improve with time and with my daddy God providing all the wisdom and love =) however i'm quite pissed with a certain somebody. can't say who. but i really felt that this person has not been totally honest and ethical with the actions that i've seen he/she is making. i've seen it once, yet i'm seeing it another time. both different actions for a same thing. he/she is probably not suitable in my opinion for whatever he/she is going to be. i'm angry. but i'm not supposed to be. because ppl make mistakes. Daddy God please sanctify me from all these feelings of unhappiness and anger towards this person. teach me how to love as you love us. ok i'm done. =) 0 comments Sunday, April 15, 2007 ( @ 7:12:00 PM ) He knows our needs, long before we know what we need. for those who are feeling empty, depressed. and really empty.. Look to Jesus for the peace that you have been looking for. because He has been waiting for you. right beside you. He loves you. Anyone can fail you, BUT Jesus Christ. anyways, i went to sizzlers buffet! so happy =)))))) hehe. i ate this and that and that. and it was all soooo yummy =) it's greeeaaaat! i love you daddy God! you taught me how to love others. Make me a blessing to people around me. =) 0 comments Tuesday, April 10, 2007 ( @ 4:42:00 PM ) yupp okay i've said my words =) 0 comments Friday, April 06, 2007 ( @ 10:53:00 PM ) i took pretty neoprints! let me share it with you..  I think this is okay okay only. hahah we chose this out of panic.  ohhh! i love this! and he added that GA ZUA underneath.  i like this too! we look happy!  my aiming is really bad...  i'myour strawberry jam!  Okay finally this! phew =) just wanna say you've been the bestest wonderfullest =) love u! on a smaller note, i think i don't know your true and real self. after reading your blog etc. i just find that you are a different person outside with other people, and with me. i'm not sure if that's the way things are..but i feel wierd knowing your the other side of you. your other side is not bad. just rather wild. i'm not sure if i know you afterall. that's probably why i get conflicting emotions in response to you. oh well. i guess it doesnt really matter. but it's just wierd. 0 comments |