hi everybody..as most of you all noe by now...i've recently lost someone so dear to me..the pain is still so fresh in all our hearts..sometimes, i still can't believe that it is happening..i could not witness his body before he was placed in the coffin, much less his last breath. i wish all this was just a cruel dream and i could wake up from it and hug my dear daddy again..i really wish i could hear his heavy footsteps..just feeling his presence will satisfy me..i've not really gotten a chance to really say how much i love you..but i really do daddy..

the day before leaving for taiwan..it was sunday..i remembered asking you..'pa, where are you going..?' you smiled and answered..'wherever you go i'll follow you..' but i didnt take your words seriously..i thought u were joking..i guess you never realised it was your last day either..but i regret not spending the day with you..at night..on the way home from marina south..you asked me why i didnt learn driving..you said you will leave after i've driven you around..you said so..but since you are no longer here..i'll fulfill your wishes..i'll learn driving..just for you.. you asked if i loved you..i answered 'of course i do..' but in a rather embarrassing tone..i'll never ever be again...

before leaving for taiwan..i wanted to call you..but your phone wasn't with you..i just wanted to hear your voice before leaving..but it didnt bother me much..coz i thought i had plenty of chances after this to hear you again..your disappearance worried us..but our faith kept us going and we thought you were alright...me and amily went for our tour without worrying much..mummy was crying on the second day of ur disappearance..but i thought..perhaps it's really nothing much. the bomb fell on us on thursday..when we received a call about you..we hadn't expected the least of that to happen at all..it was all so surreal..i really didn't want it to happen.. i didn't want to believe it's happening..i wanted to get home asap..but couldnt..my faith was shaken..i cried out to the Lord..why did you let my father go just like that...we cant possibly do without him...we cant..

sunday came and we arrived to Singapore..we were nervous when we were on our way home..seeing you in the coffin..seeing you on a picture smiling...was too painful...but we knew..you were finally home to be with the Lord..aunty bessie prayed and the Lord mercifully gave her a vision of you shooting up to heaven.looking back..we realised..Lord gave us a total of nine months to be a happy family..to really treasure u..the nine months was extended when you were in ICU for a week..all i can thank Lord is that you left this world without pain..you left painlessly in your sleep.You were lying down in your favourite sleeping position..Thank you Lord.For letting daddy leave us in the most merciful way a person can ever leave. Thank You Lord..