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The child 21 so old =( 01081986 Student NUS Arts/ Social Work Christian New Creation Church Loves all who matters to me =) Food! butter corn and raisins! Pepsi WESTLIFE!!! Hates insincerity previous posts what i want to say is, Daddy God you NEVER FAIL to... today's definitely not one of my better days. =( ok i'm in the youth hub manning youth hub. let me ... once again i'm back! after taking a looong hiatus ... ahh let me set the record straight. i got study ok... i'm here to blog!!!today's flow of events.. 10am: ... today is Miracle Seed Sunday!!! =)) Expect expect ... [ ` *wenbin* ` ] [11th] ~ ウェンビン *~ says:hahah dun... alright can liao. sighs. another ktv session. 3 co... past 08/01/2003 - 09/01/2003 09/01/2003 - 10/01/2003 10/01/2003 - 11/01/2003 11/01/2003 - 12/01/2003 12/01/2003 - 01/01/2004 01/01/2004 - 02/01/2004 02/01/2004 - 03/01/2004 03/01/2004 - 04/01/2004 04/01/2004 - 05/01/2004 05/01/2004 - 06/01/2004 06/01/2004 - 07/01/2004 09/01/2004 - 10/01/2004 10/01/2004 - 11/01/2004 03/01/2005 - 04/01/2005 04/01/2005 - 05/01/2005 05/01/2005 - 06/01/2005 06/01/2005 - 07/01/2005 07/01/2005 - 08/01/2005 08/01/2005 - 09/01/2005 09/01/2005 - 10/01/2005 12/01/2005 - 01/01/2006 01/01/2006 - 02/01/2006 02/01/2006 - 03/01/2006 03/01/2006 - 04/01/2006 04/01/2006 - 05/01/2006 05/01/2006 - 06/01/2006 06/01/2006 - 07/01/2006 07/01/2006 - 08/01/2006 08/01/2006 - 09/01/2006 09/01/2006 - 10/01/2006 10/01/2006 - 11/01/2006 11/01/2006 - 12/01/2006 12/01/2006 - 01/01/2007 01/01/2007 - 02/01/2007 02/01/2007 - 03/01/2007 03/01/2007 - 04/01/2007 04/01/2007 - 05/01/2007 05/01/2007 - 06/01/2007 06/01/2007 - 07/01/2007 07/01/2007 - 08/01/2007 08/01/2007 - 09/01/2007 09/01/2007 - 10/01/2007 10/01/2007 - 11/01/2007 11/01/2007 - 12/01/2007 12/01/2007 - 01/01/2008 01/01/2008 - 02/01/2008 02/01/2008 - 03/01/2008 04/01/2008 - 05/01/2008 05/01/2008 - 06/01/2008 09/01/2008 - 10/01/2008 10/01/2008 - 11/01/2008 02/01/2009 - 03/01/2009 links joHn kHoO sZeLiNg sHunDeNg brYaNlee aH zHor aka Yz dImpLy CryStal joooochuan yiiWen yIngChAo FreD PootS cHlOe huIshAn miChelle liXian coPyCat JanIciA zhenqiN/a> pAstOr BeNjaMin cHarMainE reBeCca=)
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Wednesday, March 22, 2006 ( @ 10:29:00 AM ) i guess, God has spared both of us so mercifully from the agony of acknowledging a body that belonged to someone whom we love and respect. as auntie bessie described the scenes, i thought through the heartache that my other sisters and mom had to go through.. when we were back in taiwan, Hugo(my dad's fav. pet dog) found my dad. in his decomposed state.. it had been four days since we were able to find him. they were called from wherever they were and Amy jie refused to accept the fact that daddy was really gone.. Pastor Rennis, Pastor Tony, Pastor Vincent etc.. were there too. she frantically begged for ressurection.. Serene jie was confused of whether that could be possible.. Auntie bessie den prayed and realised it was the cold truth. the police came and the place was bounded away.. Amy jie being a fighter in spirit tried to break climb over to daddy's body..but was held on by the rest.. the next day was not much easier..it was probably the worse day in their lives.. it was the day where they had to acknowledge the body at the mortuary..only two were allowed, hence my da jie and mum went in first.. i guess the torment they had to go through was undescribable. my dad's face was bloated and beyond recognition.. the situation got out of hand when the rest of them went in. the cries of agony was more than bearable.. when they had to put the body into the coffin, mom and sisters wanted to take a last final look before they sealed it..yet, the man in charge advised them against it. he said, 'leave a beautiful memory of him in your mind.' they decided against it and the body was finally sealed within. i guess, it's God's plan. to let us leave for Taiwan before anyone realised that daddy is missing. to let us stay in Taiwan.. so that in our memories, will be a daddy that is beautiful, not one that he is found in a decomposed state.. "from dust to dust he returns..." for us, hearing the news in the streets of taiwan wasn't great. it was a shock beyond words. i refused to accept the truth.. and kept believing that daddy will be ressurected again. it was a naive thinkin..but that's what we wanted.. to be able to hug daddy in flesh. we had barely the mood to finish up the tour..however, God forced us through it.. and we realised that we had to be fine, for the sake of my uncle, my auntie, my cousins and esp. my grandma..who loves and cares for us. the tour took our mind off things and helped us tremendously through the early stages of losing daddy.. perhaps some of you might be thinking that i should move on..from this...but i do miss my daddy truckloads..i am not able to hug him in flesh anymore..never able to do the things we want to anymore..but i wont leave my life stagnated but yet live a life that daddy and God wants me to. i fell ill last week and felt a tinge of sadness when i realised that Daddy will never be there to take me to the doctor or hold me so tightly ever again. he will not be there to hold me and comfort me whenever he can anymore.. Daddy, i noe you are up there somewhere.. all of us miss you alot..though we do regret many things..but we'll still treasure whatever memories we have kept..i will learn to be strong and not cry so easily anymore..I Love You, Daddy. 0 comments Sunday, March 19, 2006 ( @ 12:10:00 AM ) sighs. anyway it seems as though when you are out of something then you will be able to see the whole picture in a clearer view. hmm. i had countless of people around me telling me how he wasn't suitable for me, yet i chose to hang on. i was naive. really naive. how could i see a future in a r/s when i found myself crying every other day(pained my mother), getting shouted at with vulgarities, worrying about how not to make him angry every other day etc.? the worse thing is, you've even said that u didnt like my dad.(b4 he left tt is) that made me really pissed off. not with you, but with myself for not standing up for my dad. i guess i'm not blaming you..but if u happen to read this, please do think about it. have u ever considered about other ppl's feelings before saying or doing anything? if u think ur temper is inborn..den let it be. i'm sorry if i sound harsh..but that period of my life wasn't exactly my happiest. phew. i just let eeverything out. i really wanted to let it out. thankew.. 0 comments Thursday, March 16, 2006 ( @ 4:43:00 PM )
What Kind of Pie Are You? 0 comments ( @ 4:39:00 PM ) i dun agree!
0 comments Monday, March 13, 2006 ( @ 7:37:00 PM )  presenting......Mr. nice guy!!! =D terence!!!!  0 comments ( @ 7:37:00 PM )  heee heeee...i love this! 0 comments ( @ 7:36:00 PM )  me and birthday boy!! 0 comments ( @ 7:36:00 PM )  okay watch this! this is my fav!!! jungle speed!!!!! 0 comments ( @ 7:35:00 PM )  and again! 0 comments ( @ 7:35:00 PM )  the people at settlers =D 0 comments ( @ 7:35:00 PM )  HAPPIE BIRTHDAY EDWIN!!!!!!! =D 0 comments ( @ 7:34:00 PM )  terence and boonsong! for celebration of edwin's birthday =D 0 comments ( @ 7:34:00 PM )  we were at my home eating my mummy's yummy food! my mouth was full! 0 comments ( @ 7:33:00 PM )  and he wrote this on his notes..=) 0 comments ( @ 7:33:00 PM )  we were in YIH study room studying! =D so guai eh! 0 comments ( @ 7:32:00 PM )  haha. this is me and pootsie!!!! i look crazy eh..pootsie looking as pretty as ever! 0 comments Saturday, March 11, 2006 ( @ 12:55:00 AM )  i love this!!!!! =) so sweet hor!!!!! 0 comments ( @ 12:54:00 AM )  love love =) 0 comments ( @ 12:54:00 AM )  first date to ktv. hahaha. 0 comments ( @ 12:53:00 AM )  i'm running out of captions! 0 comments ( @ 12:53:00 AM )  on our way to csl! we weren't together yet. heh. 0 comments ( @ 12:53:00 AM )  little thumb next to big thumb! 0 comments ( @ 12:51:00 AM )  always secure in him. 0 comments ( @ 12:51:00 AM )  love =D 0 comments ( @ 12:50:00 AM )  i always look so fat next to him!!!!!! 0 comments ( @ 12:49:00 AM )  a promise that we will always keep =) yes? 0 comments Sunday, March 05, 2006 ( @ 8:21:00 PM ) okay now is the time to feed people who are hungry for gossips. haha. i guess it will not serve as a gossip anymore..hmm. to those people who kept asking and asking and asking..cough *algy* cough *terence*..and many others..yes it's true. haha.. and i'm really really blessed to have him. Sometimes u just noe things are made and planned that u are so sure u want to be in this way for a long long time. Yes..i really wanna thank God for you.. He sent you to me when I needed someone to share my life with. =) He sent you to me when I was getting past all the hurt from losing Daddy. It doesnt serve as a replacement for Daddy..but rather someone who is capable of protecting me with all his life. =) It is really something that i hadn't expected...totally unexpected i would say..hmm..we've seen each other around..but never expect u to be the one who would bring smiles to my face every other minute. =) The feeling in me is so certain, so true..that i knew you would be the one i would love to spend the rest of my life with..=D so certain that i brought u to see my family and grandma the moment i had a chance. They approved of you=) and it means alot for my family to approve of my bf. =D Even they knew that you were right for me, and able to bring happiness and joy to my life. At the start, i was kind of unsure..one is that we havent known each other for a long time. and this could be kind of fast. also, i've lost faith. however there are more than enough evidence to prove that you are different from the rest. Sometimes the perfectness frightens me..that it could only be a short lived fairytale story..all i can do is Trust. Trust in the Lord and your love. =) I've never felt so loved before. It's true and i'm speaking from the bottom of my heart. It made my other relationships stand shy from aside as well as shallow. I've never had someone who took care of me like you did, hold me so securely in your arms like you did. Never had someone who were as patient as you are with me..someone who never flares up at little stuff and someone who lets me have my way in whatever i do. Never had someone who treats me with so much respect and love like you did..a person who loves me with all his might and the things you do reflects your maturity and it makes me feel so protected And assured. Never had someone who never spares me with compliments and praises. Someone who loves me for who i am. Who thinks i'm beautiful the way i am. What more could a girl ask for..? =) It hasn't been long since we were together..but i feel as though i've been waiting for him for a long long time. the simplicity of this resounds perfectness. i'm so blessed. I'll really cherish this.=D Today we went to church together..as a non-christian, he was soo patient as he sat next to me as i attended the service. don't worry kay..i'm not pressuring you for anything. just follow ur heart =) Pastor Rennis made a prayer for both of us. thank you, almighty Father in Heaven. Thank you for showing me how grateful i should be about my life=) Had an enjoyable day though it was short. =) YUPP. we took a neocard. haha.it looks funny coz i pressed wrongly and chose an ugly ugly ugly card. haha. but it's still sweet eh. =) before leaving, he gave me a card. thanking me for everything. it was sweet beyond words. to any other person, it could only be a mushy lovey dovey sort of card..but it made me tear with tears of happiness. Sincerity and lots of love. that's what i felt it to be. =) *touched beyond words* i still miss daddy alot..but i should be glad that he's released from this world eh? we'll always remember and love u Daddy..You will always be the greatest =D 0 comments |
